1. |
Rain
03:05
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Rain down hard
Rain down heavy
The days have felt so long since I lost you
I can barely breathe
I build my shrine to remember
I build my shrine to wash it away
I build my shrine for all we’ve lost
I build my shrine to bring you back
We buried our sins too deep
And I feel in
When I collapse into the greys of the earth
My body will die
But my spirit will live on in the darkness
Where I belong
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2. |
Pages
06:24
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You wrote to me again
Before you came to rest
And I look for all the pages left behind in boxes
To see if I still feel the slightest sense of you
You were lost, you were scared
And I didn’t even try to find you
So I’ll stare at this god damn door
As if you’ll come back home to me again
How can I sleep?
How can I move on knowing that you’re gone?
You were lost, you were scared
And I didn’t even try to find you
But I still want to know you better
I’ll read every word to find what I need to know
To find the slightest semblance of you
You never cease to surprise me
After everything you can still make me laugh
I never knew you could sing
I never knew you wrote lyrics
I never knew you could draw
I never knew you liked red wine
But I know that you loved me
And that will never fade from this earth
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3. |
Rift
02:07
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I could fall
Oh so deep
Tear me apart
The rift is open
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4. |
Unsaid
03:24
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I can feel your eyes
Escaping my gaze
So close, yet so far
We tread so…
I’m crawling into my hole
I can feel you
I can feel your eyes escaping my gaze
When we leave things unsaid like we always do
I don’t owe you words
When I cannot speak
But I could listen better
I could be a better friend
I want to find you
I live to find you
Somewhere in the discourse
That I’m supposed to understand
So I’m crawling in…
I don’t want to resent you any more
I’m sorry that I left so many things unsaid
I know we can repave this road
I know we can move on because
I can feel you everywhere I go
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5. |
Gazed
05:48
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I’ve spent so long
Searching for answers
That I failed to see
The constellations
This feels like purpose
This feels like shelter in rain
This feels like safety
This feels like contentment in all
I stand at the wake of all that I know
Humbled by uncertainty
I stand, in awe of the cosmos
Liberated by my own obscurity
Clear skies on the darkest night
My place of worship
Take me there
We’ll look together
My flesh
My soul
My ego
Are failing me
I stand before the earth
Unafraid and unashamed
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6. |
Permanence
06:37
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You fear what’s under
Your veil of apathy
You hear it creeping
The sound of permanence
The harvest continues
Until the river runs dry
And the noise fades away
Until all you can hear is
The sound of permanence
You can hear it in the silence
Hear it in the crowd
You hear it in the darkness
Unbearably loud
Stalking you like prey
The sound of permanence
Is what you fear the most
The sting of a life lost
For the convenience of strangers
When you look at my face
Do you think that’s flesh you’re seeing?
When you hear my voice…
Is it all too familiar
When it stings
It breaks the skin and burns
Every fucking time
The wind blows
But the water remains still
I fear a life unexpressed
Conformed to arbitrary barriers
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7. |
Far
01:03
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It feels like solace is as far as it’s ever been
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8. |
Here
05:04
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There’s a hollowness to this room
An absence I can’t place
I used to know how to make you laugh
But now we sit in silence
I never know what to say
So where do I begin…
Right before my eyes
Our connection turns to grey
I have to look away
Cause the cruelest of departures
Come with no words at all
I’ll hide behind my apathy
Cause it’s just how I cope
But I feel like a failure
When you won’t let me in
I never know what to say
So where do I begin?
I can feel the longing
I can feel the longing that you know…
I never considered
That I couldn’t let you in
You can feel the longing
You can feel the longing in your skin…
You’re here but you’re not here
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9. |
There
04:17
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I thought it was strength to deny my grief
Until it consumed my being
I thought I was a stone fortress
I thought I could face it alone
Until the feeling outweighed
The shame of vulnerability
I still think about the days
When I had no control
Dark thoughts clouded my judgment
Open wounds I wouldn’t let heal…
You stood right behind me
When I needed you most
I could have lost myself
In the hole that I dug
You were always there
When I was ungrateful, when I was selfish
You were always there
When I was incredulous, when I was wrong
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10. |
We Came Here to Grieve
06:16
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Even in my darkest moments
The light pierces through the curtains
Where the aging fabric has unwound
As tangible as your nails on my skin
Far beyond my grasp
Live the answers I seek
Unbound from my own nature
I’ll embrace the unknown
This feels like cleansing
This feels like waking from death
This feels like transcendence
This feels like breathing you in
When I feel your presence
The earth moves like eyes
In deep sleep waking abruptly
To meet the rising tide
I used to fear the darkness
Until we looked together
We came here to grieve
We left with something else
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